Talk About it Tuesday

Subject: What Happens When You Want To Quit?!?

Can I be honest? While my life is amazing, there are days I’m just not interested in doing everything that comes with all the roles that I have to fulfill. I don’t feel like being wife, mommy, blogger, friend, daughter, etc. I just want to be left alone and have no responsibilities for like a week or so. The pandemic only heightened these feelings because there really hasn’t been a break from anything for longer than a few hours, but I’m still standing. The truth is those feelings aren’t uncommon. It’s very disheartening to go hard for people that don’t even recognize it, but I’ve found that it can be apart of being a stay at home mom. So how am I figuring all this out?

It’s a daily process!!! I know everyone isn’t going to admit these sorts of feelings or things, but there’s no need to hide behind it. You can’t correct something you aren’t willing to admit exists. One of the things I’ve done is change the way I think about the situation. I’ve always wanted a clean house (well at least the parts visitors may encounter). Keeping that at the forefront, I’m cleaning constantly because I value it. I stress to the people that reside here that they need to do a better job of helping, but whether they do or not I want to live in a certain environment so I will make it happen. I have to remind myself of this because they will come and destroy a clean space without an afterthought, but I don’t flip out anymore and just hold them accountable to their contribution to any messes made. 

If life hasn’t taught me anything…it’s showed me that no matter how I feel it will keep going on. I work hard while I’m working, but when I need to rest I make sure that I get it in. I refuse to overwhelm myself anymore when it’s not necessary. I know we’ve been sold on the superwoman/man mentality, but it’s not feasible. We are human and we can’t do everything. Do what you can do 100% and work on becoming better at the other stuff or pay for it to be completed. It is OKAY!!! Everyday I’m working on keeping this at the forefront so I don’t just give tasks the middle finger, but for real this mindset is helping me keep thoughts of quitting away. Does this ever happen to you? If so, how do you combat these thoughts?