Worth it Wednesday

Topic: Taking Personal Responsibility

So…there’s not product review this week. I have been wrapping my mind around getting back into the school routine this week and I realized I have a lot more work today. I honestly don’t enjoy waking up early anymore and it’s something that negatively impacts my daily output as far as I’m concerned. But (so I can get back on topic), I’ve realized that while there’s so many areas of my life that I’ve become consistent there are still plenty that are inconsistent. This is how the road got led back to personal responsibility. Right now I’m in a fragile state of not being as healthy as I want and should be, but far from where I started yet still not seeing the results I want from my hard work. 

For anyone that knows me or has been following me, I’ve been on a consistent weight loss journey for about 2 years. I do workouts nearly everyday and I have been more conscious of my daily eating habits. Naturally, this has yielded weight loss results. The flip side is that my body likes to fight me. I have no idea why. I have had so many tests run on me (I know I need to go back to the doctor because aside from my OB-GYN it’s been years), but there’s nothing that indicates there should be a problem. I get that aging also impacts this, but I feel like I’m still in the age group that it shouldn’t have this great of an impact. This is where personal responsibility hit me square in the face. The number 1 rule when beginning weight loss is going to the doctor to ensure everything is on the up and up. Your regimen should be tailored around those results. I know this and yet I have failed to follow sound advice. Because I haven’t gone to the doctor I don’t get as frustrated when my body goes wonky on me even though I’m doing the work. Another area that I struggle with is meal prep. Back in the day, I had no problems at all with knowing what meals I would be eating and putting myself into position to have that. Now…I just can’t. For a while I completely fell of the wagon, but now I’m doing much better with being mindful of what’s going into my body so that it can produce the best results. Of course this is only one portion of my life that this applies.

This biggest area currently is what I would consider my lack of results. I feel like I should be further in life than I currently am. Jokingly I say things about being sponsored, but please believe that apart of my goals is to get paid to do this. I’m consistent now because this really is a space for me to release and be me, but I want to make a contribution financially to my family without sacrificing time and being on someone else’s schedule. Comparison is the killer of self esteem to most, but I use it as a means for “research”. There are so many women doing what I want to do (and being paid for it) and the one thing I have to admit to myself is that I’m not putting in the work required to get the results. It’s hard to admit to myself often and yet the more I can be honest the more likely I will finally get into position to start. I have to be more interactive on social media (this is really one of my biggest downfalls….It’s so time consuming) as well as being making videos. I said when virtual school started I was going to get myself together and that’s exactly what I’m going to do. This is week 1 and we’ve had some minor issues, but I’m currently planning on how to arrange my space to get the best videos and will be using what I currently have on hand versus waiting until I get “the perfect” setup. If I don’t have the success I want…it’s on me! I know I’m not the only person that struggles here so I want to say it out loud so you know you’re not alone!

Is it Worth it: YES….doing the work always yields results. I won’t lie and say it will always be the ones you want, but something is always more than nothing.

Do you have something you’re currently not taking personal responsibility that you need to work on?